I love you. When I meet a soul that connects with mine. I love you. I want to share my heart with you. I love you. I care deeply about you as a person. I love you. Why must it be so complicated? I don’t mean we should cheapen the phrase. It is a powerful phrase. It’s a soul stirring, vibrant, life giving phrase. Some part of my heart longs to reach out to let you know that I feel you. I understand. I want to help. I want to connect. I want you to know that you are not alone. All that, wrapped up in three words. How miraculous one phrase can be.
My friends probably think I’m nuts the first time I say it to them. I’m usually the first to say it, probably because we are so conditioned to be scared of being so open about our feelings. Usually, it’s at the end of a phone or text conversation, but sometimes it’s after a good visit when I know we won’t see each other for a while. I make no visible sign of what I’m thinking, but part of me always wonders, “What’s she going to think?” So it usually starts off with a laid back “love ya!” That shouldn’t make too many waves. Carelessly, I toss out the phrase as if it’s nothing, when what I really want to say is, “My sweet sister, I love you.” But that is too real, too honest. I can’t say that.
It’s even more difficult with male friends. Fortunately, I have gay friends to whom I can openly say, “I love you” with no worry of misinterpretation. Thank goodness for my gay friends! Men with whom I can have conversations without worrying about pretense or subtext. But, I digress. I have a lot of male friends who I care deeply about. I am not looking for romance with them, but I would like to be able to say “I love you” without misinterpretation.
I am desperate to be able to tell the people I care about, “I love you.”
Why? Why must it be so hard to say. I decided years ago that those people I care about will know that I love them because life is too short to rob the ones I love of those three life giving words. I love you.
I think so many of us wrestle with this. We feel the need to connect with someone, but we fear sounding childish, cheesy, or being misunderstood. What about you? Who have you wanted to say those words to? What is stopping you?